It was upseting. Call me sensitive or whatever you want. But don't I deserve to show how I feel when you hurt my feelings? Sorry for calling you a cocky piece of shit but sometimes you just feel that you are some eagle soaring high and above. I am not your prey.

People have their own interests. Call them stupid, call them unrealistic... But why should you make fun of them? It could be their passion since young, or their dream come true. For instance, do you make fun of someone who love animals and wanna be a zookeeper? You look down at them saying yucks, you clean shit and smell dirty everyday. Please respect the very fact of a decent and honest job and for their love and passion of let say animals.

What am I am saying may not be your point. Perhaps you were agitating me and ok you won. You did. You said you were joking? Sorry I don't take this kinda jokes. It was not funny at all. Instead, it was irritating and to the extreme point of it being really painful.

From there it hit me hard, and I felt that same kind of pressure when my days were down. It was not once, not twice and not thrice I have felt this way. I never revealed them because each time I thought about it, the pressure hits me harder.

It may be your way of pushing me on and waking me up but not this way. Please don't make me look you as a competitor because one day I might just show you......

We played the song "What a wonderful world" at guitar lesson today. This may have no link to what I am saying but when I think what a wonderful world, it is such irony... ...

Sorry to the projects or any uncompleted work, I got to put you behind for now...